Sunday, May 2, 2010

What a differance a day makes.

So, I have been pondering my life's goals. Come to find out I never had any. Just live life as it comes too me, and never look back. No regrets.

Well that didn't work so well.

A wise man once said "Some people play the cards they are dealt, some people deal the cards". At times we are both things. Im my life I have re-dealt the cards 2 times so far.

Once, when I went on the road and then when I finally left the road. I'm now planning on dealing the cards again for the 3rd time. Do I have regrets for my past? yes. I regret some of the things I did, the people I hurt, the choices I had to make.

But, when I look at the good memories I have of those times the adventures i got to go on. I wonder why I have the regret. Why should I feel bad about something that Gave me so much fun, and pleasure.

many movies have brought up the idea of, if you could do it all again.. would you make the same choices?

Through all the hurt, all the pain. All the questions...

This month has been a lot about soul searching for me. Wondering what would have happened. But through it all, I would have to say yes. YES! I would make all the same decisions again. At the time they were the right one's because it led me on the path to where I am. I get to indulge my creativity in directing Seminar, and I get to indulge my passionate side in pushing audio drama with Audio Drama talk. and I get to indulge myself in crashespad... the dork side of me gets shown right here. Plus I have a loving wife who has been though.. well hell with me. Through my cancer surgery, and my many mental breaks. I have a son that is too smart for his own good, yet loves me unconditionally.

yes, I'm not rich. I'm not famous. But I have a life I can be proud of. I'm ready to deal the cards again. But, in the game of life. So far. I'm at least breaking even.

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